She goes in cycles of activity in the church and makes unwise decisions with roommates to share her apt and she gets easily offended, that one can tell the Holy Ghost is not with her or invited to be with her.

My firstborn was inactive for a time but kept most of the commandments and word of wisdome, but did not attend church nor pay tithing. After leaving home, he lived with rowdy roommates in a house in town and literally had to be their father figure, as they were too wild to take care of basic things a young adult should when renting. There were beer parties and trashed yard and living quarters that my son had to really get on his roommates and so called buddies.

He finally decided to buy his own home so he could have conditions that were more peaceful for him. Not long after that his grandmother died of leukemia and his mother, me, found an LDS girl on an LDS website in the personals. I did not go to the website for that purpose, but I do feel I was inspired to.

Anyway, he met the girl I chatted with about my son and he finally met her when he was in Idaho Falls for his Grandmother’s funeral. He dated this girl for a time and then they got married soon at the stake center, as they both didn’t qualify for the temple due inactivity and not paying tithing.

His now wife and mother of 2 was a young thing just out of high school and beauty school when she married my son. She grew up with an inactive family except for her father and sister. And was born under the covenant. So she had so much to learn from my son who had that basic background of attending Sunday School, Primary, Priesthood meetings and Scouts also Seminary. So in a way my son has been a missionary to his wife and her family.

My Daughter in law has in her Patriarchal Blessing that she would be an example to her family and bring them into activity by her actions with her own little family.

A year after their marriage, they went through the temple and since then have been very active and true and they both teach eachother about what they should be doing int their lives.

I’m happy to say that they live just down the street from us, so I get to enjoy their company and my two little grandchildren.

Now to wait for my daughter to catch up, as she is close in age to her older brother and I would like to see her someday get married in the Temple as well.

I was going to that add that my teenagers would say that high school was like an R rated movie, which I would teach them that we don’t watch those kinds of movies. So the world is awful out there and I feel for my children’s souls as they have to go out in the world with all the filth out there being bombarded right and left from the evil one.

One son didn’t make it from the bullying of others, his peer group and adults. He could bare it no longer and took his life at age 15 1/2 by jumping off a cliff. He did suffer from ADHD which I found out later that depression can come from that difficulty.

I’m sure besides me, my children have suffered from this onslaught of pain to our souls. And my children have had a mother checked out for awhile. We do, my husband and I feel that my son is busy preparing the way for us and doing missionary work. A year after his death, my eldest son did this younger son’s temple work. It was a very special experience and we know that he is okay and close by.

Besides my young adult daughter, I have two others sons still on earth and they are active in their own way. I’m waiting for the 22 year old to go on a mission, but he seems to be a late bloomer, but highly intelligent as well as his younger brother, the baby of the family. He is a Senior now at his highschool which is a professional tech school and doesn’t have to be around 2,000 or 3,000 students everyday and listen to their garbage.

There are 200 at his school and he has come up from almost flunking out to being on the Honor Society and maintaining the schools servers due to his computer skills. Which is a high honor as the student that does this has to have integrity. He was entrusted with this job as a Junior which usually goes to a Senior. So we are pleased with this and only wish that he could attend seminary.

But due to his workload in the past, he was retaking a lot of classes to get his grades up. But he has been to Nauvoo and Palmyra with his father and wept while standing in Joseph Smith’s bedroom where Angel Moroni appeared to him. Although the house is a replication.

Anyway, I’ve said enough and I needed this website to express my feelings as I too am concerned for my children’s Spiritual Welfare.

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