Wow, this is amazing! I have been in a spiritual feast in the last two weeks, but now I am so full I don’t think I can eat anymore. Although, I do want more…to feed my heart and soul.
Your articles on this topic has been a blessing to me, and I have been inspired by the Holy Ghost to take the steps that you have outlined. Get physical. emotional and spiritual help, as I have been fighting a monster that wants to take me down in despair. There are many struggles I have had to overcome. Not in worthiness, but faith and hope. There has been so many bombshells that have tested my faith, my family’s, and siblings.
I remain strong, and know that Heavenly Father has been watching me all along. Even though it didn’t seem like it, I had to accept His help in a step by step process, although my pain was calling out in my time, not the Lord’s due time. But the wait has been worth it and my soul is full.
One of the blessings I received was a renewal in my faith that the Lord watches over us as I searched stories of my husband’s ancestry and mine. It came about as a desire to get my home in order, starting at the living room window that had my late sweet dog and our cats nose goo on it. After I cleaned that I continued to pursue the organization of our CDs, DVDs, and cassette tapes. I played the music I haven’t heard for quite some time bringing me joy and happiness. I went about my cleaning and opened up some binders that had some family history of my husband’s ancestors, prepared by his late mother for Christmas when she had passed from Leukemia a few years back.
I was fed with the love of my forefathers, and the sacrifices they made to join the church and cross the plains to Utah. The heartache they felt when loved ones died from illness, injury and lack of food and shelter. Both of our ancestors had accepted the gospel just about the same time, moved around a lot due to the persecutions to church members and would end up living in Jackson County, Missouri.
They then lived in Quincy, Lima, Nauvoo, Yelrome and back to Nauvoo and were well acquainted with Prophet Joseph Smith and Brigham Young.
My husband’s and my ancestors also served in the Mormon Battalion together and some of them were in the same Company.
All of this came about by LDS Missionaries. My testimony has been strengthen by the committment of these Missionaries and how the Spirit of Elijah was directing them. So I am determined to fight for my family that their testimonies will grow and desire to serve the Lord mightily.
And by finding Larry’s writings has helped tremondously, recalling what I have read and learned years ago, but my trials had worn me down and I became reclusive. Which is not my personality and it has taken a long time to get some of that back as a patient Bishop would call us to simple assignments that we could handle as a couple, such as the Nursery! Due to serving in the Nursery for 1 1/2 years, I gradually can recall what I had learned earlier in my parenting days, service in the Primary, Scouts, Relief Society, Visiting Teaching, and more. But my light was snuffed out when I lost a son to suicide. And I believe that took some of the light away from my other children who were pre-teen, teenager, and young adults.
The voices from the dead are whispering to me and I am listening and asking for help for my childrens’ struggles as there is a war out there, more powerful then this mother’s strength. But as I do His will, I am being blessed with health and strength, and a mother’s determination to not let the powers of evil deceive them from the Truth. It is done on the sly, keeping them interested in worldly things, instead of serving the Lord. I know that the Lord is mindful of them, and that they are just trying to find their way and where do they fit in this world of ours.
I am looking forward for Larry’s three books to come out as I’m going to need them!
P.S. I am blessed by my ancestors simplicity of living on very little and relying on the Lord to bless them. They had so much faith and if they can do it then I can exercise my faith more in the Lord to guide me with my family.
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