Comments on: Why I Believe in God http://www.larrybarkdull.com/248/why-i-believe-in-god Professional Writer Thu, 19 Jan 2012 18:14:13 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 By: Amber http://www.larrybarkdull.com/248/why-i-believe-in-god/comment-page-1#comment-396 Amber Sun, 08 Mar 2009 07:12:47 +0000 http://www.larrybarkdull.com/?p=248#comment-396 I was going to respond to your other article about Safety in the Covenant, because I am wavering in my faith in that safety. My husband, only 38, died suddenly of a pulmonary embolism. We too have three children, like your son Matt. I wanted to ask where our safety was? I know and understand that "safety" to be an eternal one, not necessarily temporal and while we are here to be tried and tested, but COME ON....that is what we pray for and want. As I read this article, I recognize it is not just a story- but real life being lived by real people, experiencing it all. I am sorry. My life is not just a story either. We are experiencing it. It is not fun, easy, or full of joy. We are being tried and tested and it feels that way. I too have had times of not knowing how to trust God. I find myself with only one choice in life. Yes, only ONE choice. To trust and believe the promise of eternal life or to abandon my faith and suffer and be miserable. The only agency I have is to keep making the choice of faith from the depth of my suffering. It is the only thing that brings me hope and lightens my burden enough so I can keep going. I did not know that was it. Christ is truly the only way. There is no other way except for the way of suffering. Not much of choice in my book. Yes, I am glad I have that choice, very thankful for it, but my life has been reduced to it and that is where I have found that I can only turn to Christ as my Savior. I commend Matt, Kristen, You and the rest of your family and friends for your choice in the Savior, He is the only one that can lighten our burden in this life. And thank heaven for that and I only pray that if you have to face the never ending question of why when death comes, that you once again can turn to your free agency in that one choice and still find Christ and the comforter there to help you from misery to hope. I know that this was long and rambling, but thank you for letting me express myself and for sharing your personal life and for reminding me that I have an eternal safety net in the covenant - I cherish that sealed blessing like no other. I was going to respond to your other article about Safety in the Covenant, because I am wavering in my faith in that safety. My husband, only 38, died suddenly of a pulmonary embolism. We too have three children, like your son Matt. I wanted to ask where our safety was? I know and understand that “safety” to be an eternal one, not necessarily temporal and while we are here to be tried and tested, but COME ON….that is what we pray for and want. As I read this article, I recognize it is not just a story- but real life being lived by real people, experiencing it all. I am sorry. My life is not just a story either. We are experiencing it. It is not fun, easy, or full of joy. We are being tried and tested and it feels that way. I too have had times of not knowing how to trust God. I find myself with only one choice in life. Yes, only ONE choice. To trust and believe the promise of eternal life or to abandon my faith and suffer and be miserable. The only agency I have is to keep making the choice of faith from the depth of my suffering. It is the only thing that brings me hope and lightens my burden enough so I can keep going. I did not know that was it. Christ is truly the only way. There is no other way except for the way of suffering. Not much of choice in my book. Yes, I am glad I have that choice, very thankful for it, but my life has been reduced to it and that is where I have found that I can only turn to Christ as my Savior. I commend Matt, Kristen, You and the rest of your family and friends for your choice in the Savior, He is the only one that can lighten our burden in this life. And thank heaven for that and I only pray that if you have to face the never ending question of why when death comes, that you once again can turn to your free agency in that one choice and still find Christ and the comforter there to help you from misery to hope.
I know that this was long and rambling, but thank you for letting me express myself and for sharing your personal life and for reminding me that I have an eternal safety net in the covenant – I cherish that sealed blessing like no other.

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